Something deep and personal

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Day 6: Something you would like to change about yourself

........ Uhm... I just have to sigh again, I guess. Something I would like to change within myself? This isn't so hard to answer since I have a lot actually. It's hard to be me, which is why I kind of feel like changing every part of me that makes it so hard to be me but then that would make me a different person and so... Okay enough hahaha. Here are things that I BADLY want to change about me.

Loner, no no

This may be kind of shallow but I can't eat a meal in a public place alone!!!! I just can't. I can pretty much go anywhere/do anything else alone except this. I just find eat really sad having to eat your meal alone. That's it.

Remember ME?

Yes, yes, I'm the type of person who doesn't remember birthdays. Excep if you're really special like if you're my mom or dad or me....

I'm an impatient bitch

 Yup that's right, I am an impatient...bitch. I really hate waiting. Any kind of waiting, whether it's in a line or when I'm meeting up with somebody. Like if we say it's 10am then it should be 10am or... at max until 10:15am. I mean I JUST HATE WAITING!!!! I can't explain it but I just don't like waiting like what am I gonna do to kill time??? Especially if I'm alone, right?? So there. I'm impatient... And when I'm being driven to the edge... I kinda turn into a bitch..

Pride over matter 

 Pride, pride, pride. God I have lots of them. I always let pride get in the way. That's why it always ends up with just me and my pride. I don't make the first move because...err pride EVEN IF I really like the person.. I don't do stuffs that I don't like because....err pride. Ugh I hate my pride!!!

I'm a scaredy cat

 I'm a scaredy cat when it comes to.... dealing with some serious emotions, serious stuffs, or just anything serious! I don't know how to actually confront my feelings especially when it comes to the L department. Now that's kinda hard for me to admit. That's why I'm hoping that no one I know actually reads this blog. So yes...

That's it, I guess. At least that's all that I badly want to change in myself...

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